Sunday, October 7, 2012

Nag Diaries 76.9 - Marriage Rocks

Real, Real Talk


Disclaimer:  Some of these situations are true, some of them are not but these are the thoughts of a woman trying to please her husband and hoping to get pleased herself.  


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I have been there many times.  Hubby comes home - in the mood.  You oblige him.  

It is going spectacular.

He finishes well before you.  Your excitement deflates as he apologizes.  Are you mad he asks.  Nope, you lie.  He asks you to look at him as you burn a hole in the wall from the darts shooting from your eyes.  You look at him, small smile.  You lie and say you are not mad.

But inside you are cursing, rolling your eyes and sighing in unsatisfied sexual frustration.

He apologizes again, it wasn't his fault.  He was REALLY horny.

Hey, I wasn't horny to begin with.  I was sleep and got that tap tap, shoulder roll over signal.

He tries to make it up by asking if you want to cuddle because he knows this makes you really happy.  You oblige because saying what is on your mind is out of the question.

A heavy arm is thrown across your waist as you rest on your belly. A chin rests on the back of your shoulder.  Breathing gets heavy and you realize in less than 15 freaking seconds that.........this *&!#@#! man is SLEEP.

You turn your head to the left to peek at him.  He is even snoring.  Then silently, you turn back to stare at the wall.

And he took both of the dang pillows.


*exasperated sound goes here*

Your thoughts turn to something else.  You could do it you know.  Just take care of it yourself.  It will be quick.  You know your body better than he does sometimes.

You go back and forth about the whole thing, because you really don't want to.  It's not really that satisfying because you would rather have the alternative - the real thing.

Yet, man - come on.  


Still fuming and semi-sleepy horny, your mind is made up.

You reach your hand down, careful not to wake him.  You snarl at yourself because you cant believe you are worried about waking him.

He moves his leg and slightly as his arm tightens around your waist.

That right hand creeps down.

Touches........touches........an envelope stuck to your leg.

The moment has passed as you pull the envelope from under the covers.


The dang water bill.  

You open the water bill and see that the bill is lower this month.
Hmm, that's good.  You smile, see the pile of laundry still waiting.

You remove his arm from your waste.  He wakes.  You tell you him you have to go to the bathroom.  Jumping out of bed you realize, it's OK.  It's really not that big of a deal.

Besides, who is going to do the laundry?

The day must go on. 


Friday, December 9, 2011

Nag Diaries - Fill in the Blank Friday

I found this meme on Moose Tracks and Tater Stacks.  I am NOT on day 31 but there is no better time to start!  I also linked up at Laurens page The Little Things We Do.  Hang in there mama! 

  1. Love is an action word.  It’s not enough to say “I love you” but showing is believing.
  2. Being in love feels like a vacuum sometimes. 
  3. My favorite quote about love is    "Love will draw an elephant through a keyhole. – Samuel Richardson
  4. The most important thing in a relationship is communication.  Without it, there is no marriage.  Just two people talking and no one listening.
  5. A "deal breaker" for me in a relationship is
  6. The way I show love in my relationships is forgiveness.
  7. I love my sudd-muffin.

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Nag Diaries 34.6 - You've Earned 3 Minutes of Uninterrupted Face Time


Short of throwing 2 of the 4 pillows on my bed at the back of my sudd-muffins head, I instead just blurted out, "You have earned 3 minutes of uninterrupted face time - with me."  Inside, my eyes were closed tight and I was saying, please do it, please do it baby.

Him: "Three minutes?  Three minutes??"
Me: Yes
Sudd-muffin:  Ok.

He did it.  He put down the controller.  I got my android phone and set my stopwatch app for 3 minutes.  Laid down on the bed we both did.  Face to face we lay and commenced to stare at each other intently.  For 3 minutes.

The laughter bubbled up and out of me at the ridiculousness of this spur of the moment exercise.  We stared.  He made comments about the gray spots I have on my eyes.  I made comments about his nose and his wonderfully cleft chin.  

We were studying each other so intently that I didn't here the stopwatch go off.

I snatched up my phone thinking that stupid app didn't work.  It did.  The minutes passed so quickly that they were over before we knew it.   We went in for another 3 minutes.

This time we were silent.  It was different.  I liked it.  He was actually looking at me.  He was seeing me.

You may think I am crazy and no way this married couple actually did this.  Ha - oh yes the heck we did.  I love my hubby.  I want our marriage to go the distance.  If that means coming up with dumb 3 minute exercises - then so be it.  

That 6 minutes was the longest time he has spent looking at my face since we stood at the alter.




Nag Diaries 78.9 - Return of the Ghost Blog Entry

I thought this was gone - but for some reason, it just popped right back up!

I don't like talking about my personal life, too much.  Especially my marriage.  But if there is something that I am going through that someone else may be experiencing, then it may be worth it.

At this stage in my marriage, I am experiencing some MOL tension.  We have moved to Mississippi.  I broke down and agreed.  The MOL is down here to help my sudd-muffins aunt.  That is another story though.  We moved into our apartment - a 3 bedroom and the MOL has laid claim to our extra bedroom.  
Don't get me wrong.  My MOL is WONDERFUL.  GREAT.  She has helped out so much - *cluck.  But sometimes, it's like, my sudd-muffin likes being around her more than me, his wife.  She can ask him to go to the store and he jumps right up, like sure, Mom, when do you want to leave?

Or, Son, can you iron this for me or what do you want for dinner?  

Now if I ask him to go to the store, it is more of a, "God, I don't feel like doing anything right now..."  If he is going to the store, I say, "Can I come with?" -  like a hopeful little, starved puppy - I just want to spend time with him - His response, "No, I just want to go and come back."  But let his mom say, oh, can I come with you?  SURE MOM, lets go!

All of my requests are met with deep manly sighs and exasperated shoulder heaving.  What did I do?  You married me.  We have had two miscarriages.  I have put up with your crap for 5 years.  I have stood by you and your crap for five years.  Sat and watched you waste hours in front of the Xbox and choked back complaints of laziness. 

Is my company that bad?  Am I really that uninteresting to just spend time around.  Or are men just really that selfish?
I see why marriages don't last - LAZINESS.  People don't want to work on the marriage but just have sex.  But even that takes work.  I mean, when I think about it, the sex is the highlight of the marriage - it's never bad.....ever.  Dang.  That's.....weird.  Hmmm....but I don't care about sex.  Well I don't care about it when I am not caring about it.  Get it?  
This is making me crazy.  I know I shouldn't compare what my husband does for his mother but any wife would expect her husband do even the little things.  Is that really too much to ask?  Do I really sign like a whiny, nagging wife right now?

Whatever then.


Friday, December 2, 2011

Nag Diaries 76.9 - MOL/Have Time, Will Travel - NaBloPoMo

So, I guess my first attempt at this post was a little harsh and I got God-smacked.  How can you type for like 15 mins and blogger not auto-save???? 

It just popped right back up!
Original blog post gone.  So irritated right now.  Don't feel like writing.  So here we go.
Marriage.  MOL.  No Wife Attention.  More MOL attention.  Exasperated.  Pissed. Lonely.  MOL need to leave.  She's great but need to leave. Spend time with me. That Xbox get's more action than our bed.  Sucketh. You. Do.  Arggggg. 

WANTED: Girlfriends in the Gulfcoast area.  Age 27 and up. Gossip and trash talk included.  Must pray, you know for all the trash talking - we have to repent.  Must be married or have been married.  Single women wont help me.  They will just make me envy them.  Must love food, movies, travel.  I want to travel. Let's travel.  I may run away.
Note: MOL= Mother-in-Law

Monday, November 28, 2011

Nag Diaries 78.2 - Marriage Strudel

I am a manipulator.  You have to be when you get married.  Manipulation is not all bad.  There is good manipulation, selfish manipulation, sexual manipulation, financial manipulation - all kinds.  I am a master manipulator.  I thought I was rather good at it until I met my husband.  No, I am not talking about the bad manipulation to get people to do what you want but the little wife tricks to draw the husband in - the harmless manipulation.


He is the king of manipulation reversal.    He doesn't care if we spend time together.  He doesn't care if I happen to appreciate how another man looks.  He doesn't care if I leave for hours without a call.  Doesn't really matter.  Nothing really matters except Wrestling, MMA and Xbox - the 3 Kings.  He also doesn't hang around Jealousy avenue.  I take that back. 


He got jealous.  Once.  He met the man I was dating right before we met.  Shawn.  Shawn had big muscles and was well groomed.  Shawn was a cutie pie.  The sudd-muffin didn't like Shawn.  Oh boy he was soooo jealous.  It was exciting.


I believe he likes when I leave in one of my fits of anger.  He has free time to do what he wants without me, the wife, asking for his attention.  It's a win-win situation for him.  If I say I am going out, there is no response.  I can almost hear the wheels turning in his head, calculating how much lazy time he will have to play video games and just bum it.  Ha!  And I thought I was really getting his goat.  Wrong.  He got mine and milked that sucker dry.


So day after day, I send the signals and put out the layers of my marriage strudel, hoping he will bite.  Layers stretched so thin you can almost see through em'.  


He hates pie and tarts anyway so what was I expecting.  He told me about a week ago he wasn't happy but he didn't want to be here, in Mississippi, without me.  


I think he is lying.  He has everything he needs here.  His family, old friends, old territory, old memories.  I don't really add anything to the mix.  It's like once I finally agreed to move to Mississippi, all the promises and expectations stayed in Texas - along with my $1k camera.  


It was all just talk.  


My strudel is stuffed.  I cook for him.  He says, hey thanks.  I fill my marriage with understanding.  I stuff it with tiny steps of patience.  


I ignore being ignored or being passed over for the Xbox.  I even ask if I can play too.  Nothing ever comes of that.  I pray.  Not for him but one of those, Lord change me prayers. Help me to understand that yes, I am being a bitch - excuse me, Lord forgive me.  


Help me to understand that no, my husband has no idea what the word cherish means unless we are talking about his Star Wars memorabilia.  Help me to understand me.  


I have gotten over the sexy women on TV.  I don't care how they look or if he is looking.  Doesn't really matter to me anymore.  I don't even care if he is looking at porn on the internet anymore.  He can deal with that devil.  I could give a pigs trough what I look like either.  It's not like he actually sees me anyway.  Not really.  I am invisible.  Everything is invisible.


My marriage strudel still sits here.  Untouched.  Festering.  Rotting.  Waiting for me to toss it out for the day and start anew tomorrow.


I should go shopping.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Nag Diaries - Top 10 Things I Learned While Packing

  1. That old box of books sitting in the garage has been food for the moths.
  2. KEEP YOUR ALLEN WRENCHES!
  3. Dont have a quickie in your now empty but staple, tack and screw laced bedroom floor.
  4. Lock the door if you do so.
  5. Dont pack all of your clothes if you are not sure of what day you will actually leave.
  6. Same goes for clean underwear.
  7. Don't let your husband pack.  That box with no label and taped up neatly is full of trash.
  8. Your 10 year old REALLY doesn't need ALL of those stuffed animal toys.
  9. Husbands who are not caprentry inclined should stay AWAY from taking furniture apart.
  10. If all else fails and you have too much crap to put on your truck, craiglist it.



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