Yeah I made it - guess I should lie in it. But it's difficult living a lie. I wanted so bad to have someone that truly loves me as much as I love them but I dont think that is what this bed is. It's a convenience bed and I am literally sleeping alone. It's nt enough - now I see why so many people break their vows - it's easier then living with aloneness. What's the point of being married and yet you are still alone?
I have left our room at least 3 times in the span of 1 hour and my husband never noticed. Boy I bet if I were a video game I would get turned on all the time but even that is a chore because I just dont feel like it.....................am I the only one suffering in my marriage? Waking up to silent tears? Wishing my husband understood what cherish meant? Wondering if I made a mistake because I do wonder. I know why I got married but I don't have a reason to want to stay married - well I do but it's a cop out. Dont get me wrong I would never leave my husband in the natural but I feel like he has left me mentally almost 6 months ago.
The internet and video games are what makes him happy, not me, not my daughter, this house, our life together. Nothing. So I ask, what is wrong with the marriages of today? I sure dont know what is wrong with mine........maybe someone else can shed some light on this.............feel free.
